foolish. loved. lost.

today i stopped trying to be 'someone' for somebody who never thought of me as anyone appreciated and important to them.

inside, i know the space i had for them is now crushed and broken.

in time it will be for the best. though i feel an emptiness, knowing what i considered worthwhile proved shallow and unreal. 


i've learned sometimes emotions seem clearer than perception, and eventually can lead to a heartbreaking revelation.

i cry tears of realization that once again i believed the lies that were in disguise and covered up.

honesty was masked with coy flattery. why was i so darn naive? 

i can and will move on, but i won't forget i was forgot and actually believed a lie, not a lie out of the mouth...but of the heart. 

That piece of this relationship is now many torn apart....

i must not be sorry for the encouragement and love i shared, because I know what i offered was itself a dare- a dare to let someone be a part of me, who didn't find a reason to care. 

moments like these are rare..moments that i feel what i felt to be 'nothing' now and bare.

thanks for the lesson learned and always remembered. you were a 'lucky' someone who successfully got a part of the best of me. now i'll throw away the scattered and useless pieces and leave you be.